Sunday 23 June 2013

This girl

So I have liked this girl since like grade 8 and I still haven't built up enough ball to tell hr how I really feel. It's not even like I'm admiring from afar, we talk all the time, but not as much as we used to. She used to just hit me up on facebook randomly all the time. But nowadays, I'm lucky if we speak once a week. I think it's mostly because of the fact that we are not in the same class anymore. Back in grade 8 all day we were in the same class so we talked way more often. But so far in my 2 years of high school we have only been in the same class once.. I know right. I honestly think she is one of the most beautiful girls at school. I don't really care what others have to say, it's only my opinion. She's just down to earth, enjoys the same music that i like,   smart, and her face ain't half bad either. Right now it's summer time so there isn't much that I can do. But when school starts back next fall, I'm going to at least try to make it to first base because at the moment I'm at like... ZERO. It's basically been 4 years.. GOD DAMN! Crushes come and go but at the end of the day, she's the one I go back to.

Sunday 9 June 2013

Weird Thoughts

So I don't know if this is a good thing or not. It's probably not, but I'm having weird thoughts about doing weed. I know I make jokes about drug use a lot at school but I don't know anymore man. I want to be straight edge. I look up to people like Tyler, The Creator and Pro wrestler CM Punk for being straight edge but now I don't even know anymore. I see a lot of footage of people at Cochella and what not and I just think to my self.... FUCK. I sometimes wish i could do shit like that. One thing that always stops me from doing shit like that is my sister once told be that if I ever did and weed or anything I she would cut my legs off. But at the same time I don't even know. I'm just a teen and I'm sure all of these feelings are just a part of life..

Saturday 8 June 2013

Feeling better

Well I'm starting to feel a little better about my marks. They are starting to go up little by little. By exam's, I hope to have at least a 40% in History so that I can study up and get a passing grade. As I may have mentioned before, my goal was to never fail a course in high school, but if I do, I don't really want to go to summer school so I could just repeat the course next year. This is better because I want to drop 1 of my arts anyways so I don't really care about taking it again next year. Well I may care a bit deep deep inside but until then, it should be a pretty good ride. Fuck everything else man. It's called living in the moment.